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emmie
05 February 2010 @ 07:54 pm
Heya folks. Got a 360 today so add me if you like! I also have a PS3 so add me on there too! burntotears for both! :) Give me your gamertags too!
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emmie
04 February 2010 @ 08:39 pm
Do you like any of my Merlin stories? Please nominate me for the Spring 2010 [info]camelot_awards!

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emmie
01 February 2010 @ 01:46 am
Read this. Read it and then enjoy. Because I'm writing it. Right now.

Arthur has a YouTube page where he posts videos of himself playing his favorite songs on the guitar. He is pretty popular. Merlin also has a YouTube page, but it’s dedicated to teaching people how to play the guitar.

One of Arthur’s subscribers suggested that Arthur should check Merlin’s page out (Arthur took it as an insult, because why would he need tutoring?). But Arthur checked it out anyway. After spending the whole evening going through Merlin’s videos, he found himself being completely captivated by Merlin’s joy (the way Merlin is so happy to share what he loved).

After fretting forever over it, Arthur posted a reply video to one of Merlin’s video (some song).

So the whole purpose is I want to see them courting through YouTube video replying? Instead of sending messages back and forth as answers, they reply through their songs?


I have their playlists done already. Basically, perusing YouTube for acoustic music landed me on these FANTASTIC guys (with such a beautiful voice too) so you should definitely give them a listen. Arthur has a sort of one track taste in music--mostly rock and R&B. Merlin is totally eclectic and does pop, rock, R&B, country, etc.

Merlin: http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=4F399AC9D9006EF3
Arthur: http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=75CA7FC413E7FE43

Now all I need is to figure out is what they would call their YouTube channels. Hrmmm.

You have no idea how excited I am about this story. I love putting music into stories. EEEE!

I have to have a banner or cover art (OR BOTH!) for this story (cos yeah, I'm including all the songs in a zip file because I couldn't NOT do that). I wonder if I could beg another graphic favor from the lovely [info]apinae. *bats eyelashes* I will totally write something all of your own if you want!!

Anyhoo, if you guys have any input as to what you would like to see happen in the story, please share!
 
 
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emmie
30 January 2010 @ 08:14 pm
The Great Australian Internet Blackout

http://www.internetblackout.com.au/


How will this affect Australians and slash? http://bit.ly/4LMCVj
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emmie
Ugh. 6971 words into part five and I haven't even gotten to the middle of the chapter arc yet. Unsuitable, I am your slave, damn you. Why do you hit me so late at night with your creative juices? No, I do not have anywhere to be tomorrow but sometimes I would like to go to sleep at normal hours and wake up before noon. Damn you, you lovely little piece of fiction that I am so proud to be mother of! Damn you!

Also my internet is crawling at a glacial pace again. I suppose that is because of the 12GB of anime (Twelve Kingdoms as recommended by [info]eos_rose) I am downloading, but I'll pretend its the fault of my ISP and rant and rave about it. Haha

Man, I really need to go to sleep, but I'm having a lot of fun writing this part of the chapter and they aren't even having sex! I think it is because I am tying so much cannon into my story and doing that makes me giddy with ridiculous glee when I can pull it off masterfully. Or at least what I consider to be masterfully.

And when I do this, I enjoy having to do "research" (i.e. rewatching full episodes or bits and pieces of episodes) to make sure I do not botch something important up.

This chapter has twisted into something else entirely from what it was supposed to be. I mean, the angst and emo are still there, but it has taken such a timid course that I had to rename the chapter from what I previously planned. Oh well, I suppose that everyone will enjoy it for the quiet angst instead of the ridiculous Arthur!jackass angst that graced the previous chapter. That and the secret being out (finally!) so talk can ensue about magical things. YAY!

And there are like three different entirely long fics that I have uploaded onto my kindle to read and would like to start endulging in them but cannot do so until I finish this chapter or it will never be completed until I surface from fanfic-y goodness.

I have taken to typing "command S" on my keyboard so often while I am writing my stories (I am obsessive about not losing any work by a random crash that will never happen on my amazing Macintosh computer anyway, but still) that I do it by accident while I'm writing an LJ entry on the webpage. Firefox looks at me stupidly and laughs at my retarded fic-induced actions.

Anyway, I just have to say I have never enjoyed writing a story as much as I have this one. Especially in chapters, because each time I begin a new chapter I feel a bit lost and don't know how I'm going to get it where I want it to go until I start writing and it just comes to me and I feel this giddy little bit in my stomach that says "AHA! A brilliant turn of events!" and its just a warm and cuddly feeling I cannot really describe in normal English.

Because I am feeling so excitable and charitable, I will give you a small snapshot of Part Five of Unsuitable, Tacitly. (And it won't even be a cliffhanger that makes you want to tear out your hair! Ok maybe a little cliffhangery...)

spoilery bits for my fic ahead! )

And now? I really go to sleep.
 
 
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Current Music: Say When | The Fray
 
 
emmie
29 January 2010 @ 04:49 pm
So I was looking for a good plot idea for the fifth part of Unsuitable since I have the premise but not really a specific event to tie it all down.

Since I see a bajillion people posting with [info]kinkme_merlin prompts (which I thought was just sex prompts) I figured I'd check it out and see if I could get some inspiration. Holy crap! This thing is full of shit. Like holy crap. It has everything!

Luckily I think I did find a good one to work with, so bonus points for that! Also since everyone has really enjoyed two years, five months, three weeks, four days, I plan to write a companion piece with some random prompts from there too. :D

This place is a goldmine!

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Re-watching Colin in Midnight on Doctor Who. Haha, he's funny and adorable. And pretty sexy, yeah? :D
 
 
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emmie
What's the best font to use for text messages in a story? I'm not really sure what the "normal" text message font is. So, let's decide together!

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Courier New

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Times New Roman

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Georgia

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Arial

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Helvetica

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Lucida Console

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Tohama

Arthur: Hey Merlin, wanna shag? - Verdana

For some reason I like Courier New for anything text related, but I don't think phones use that font. Maybe it's Arial they use. Hrmmm...
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emmie
22 January 2010 @ 08:57 pm
I finally started Part Four. And seriously, guys, its breaking my heart. Its so hard to write that I want to just gloss over the crapiness and go to the fluff. It really, really is painful.

But hopefully it will make it an awesome read! :P

I am a sick person, I know... lmao


ETA: Alright! 6800 words down, a few thousand more to go, probably. Yay for angst!
 
 
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emmie
21 January 2010 @ 01:21 pm
Nominations for [info]camelot_awards!  
Do you like my story, Unsuitable? Please nominate me for the Spring 2010 [info]camelot_awards!

Nominations Will Be Closed On: Friday, 12th February 2010
Voting Will Be Held Between: Monday, 15th February and Friday, 5th March
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Thanks guys! Don't forget to nominate your other favorite authors too! (I will rec some great fics for you guys to read).

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emmie
18 January 2010 @ 03:17 am
So I was actually kinda MEH about this third part of Unsuitable. Yes, it is the smexing chapter, but other than that I didn't have a very clear vision as to how the 'awkwardness' was going to present itself. Well it didn't present itself at all, it turns out, and I found something so much more fun.

One thing I have noticed (this being my first well-thought out multi-part fic) while working on this story is that, while I have come up with some awesome pre-planned stuff that made the story what it is, there are also these bits that come out of nowhere that end up being what everyone likes best. The food fight thing happened completely randomly and was not planned to begin with. It was supposed to be like a random pillow fight or something and then Merlin was gonna hop on Arthur's bed and be like 'this is the life' and that's when Arthur was going to head-butt him with a pillow and then make out with him, but the food part was too fucking great.

It just amuses me how excited I've been about writing this story. I haven't been doing much else, honestly. Well I've been reading some fic here and there, but for the most part I've been trying to piece together how I want this sucker to go and getting up when I try to go to sleep to write down some awesome bit I thought up while trying to go to sleep.

Anyhoo, this chapter is actually starting to be my favorite one which is random because when I started writing it I hated it instantly. I can't say right now why I love it the most, but I will say so when I post it. Its so sad when I talk to myself like this. lol

I should be able to wrap this one up tomorrow. Just got the smexing to go. Woohoo!

Oh also I wrote a random flash fic with some AU Arthur/Merlin that I will finish up and post eventually. Just a totally random idea that amused me.
 
 
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emmie
17 January 2010 @ 10:41 pm


Just. Yes.
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emmie
17 January 2010 @ 03:52 pm
So this awesome icon has inspired me to make Harry Potter-ish Merlin icons. I need your favorite quotes or what you would think would fit.

I have kind of characterized Merlin as Harry and Arthur as Draco. Lol. Let me know what quotes or scenes you think would fit well and should be used! (My mind's drawing a blank so yeah, no good.)

Here's a couple I thought of just off the top of my head:

 
 
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emmie
17 January 2010 @ 02:27 am





THERE'S MORE! )
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emmie
16 January 2010 @ 10:04 pm
Writing juices are just NOT flowing today. Which is alright, gets me caught up on stuff and able to read some stories myself. But I do want to get on with it cos dammit, I want to do the angsty shit. Had I not started releasing by chapters I could've written in any order I wanted but nooooo I have to go in order. Boooo.

This chapter should be fun, what with the sexy times and all, but building up to it is turning out to be a huge failure. Maybe I should write that part and then figure out a good way to lead up to it. Or maybe I'll just take the one idea and have that be the main idea for the whole chapter rather than trying to make a huge show of millions of side plots. We all know that we love the Merlin and Arthur together, sexing or bantering or what-have-you and screw the rest of it. haha

I guess I should be on the ship with everyone else and love the sexy times more than the angsty times, but maybe that's just how we work as writers. Making characters as miserable as possible really is the best part of the cake--the true delicious filling! (hmm, maybe I should be using a pie metaphor instead.)

That being said, I really REALLY want to write a modern AU fic but I can't seem to think of anything. I love medieval settings but there's much fun to be had in the modern world. Its just the setting I have to decide, as in what will Merlin and Arthur be doing and so on and so forth etc etc yadda yadda.

I'm so effing bored, if you can't tell. I should be trying to write but instead I'm rambling on watching Secrets and Magic and wishing I was born in the UK instead of the USA cos their accents are just so much cooler. I've also been doing my read-backs in my awesome British accent. Lmao. Reading aloud in a British accent makes editing so much more fun and entertaining, guys!

Also I had a helluva lot more people commenting on part one than part two so it makes me wonder where the heck everyone's at. Its been a really slow day! Maybe that is why my enthusiasm to write has been a bit low today--not even raving readers!

Anyhoo, I'm gonna go read some AU fics for a bit to sate my appetite.
 
 
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emmie
15 January 2010 @ 12:57 pm
You know what is hilarious? This second part of Unsuitable that I am writing now was not even supposed to be angsty. This was supposed to be the part in which I wrote the awkward Merlin and Arthur friendship stuff, but now I've got six pages of Merlin angst and still more to come. Holy shitfire. This part was supposed to lead into the sexing part and that can't happen until the angsty part is over, which means part two and part three are gonna be long as friggin fuck.

And I have to say, I love it all. Just love it. Don't get me wrong, I love awkward Merlin and his happy-go-lucky grin but angsty!Merlin is totally fun to write. Maybe it has nothing to do with it being Merlin because I am obsessed with angst and it makes my heart go round when I read it. HAHA.

I just hope that this deep-seeded, evil hatred I have poured into Merlin's tiny head is appreciated by my readers once they see dorky!Merlin back in action. I hope so, cos I know I sure as hell appreciate it. But maybe I am just a truly sick and evil writer...

Also, Bradley is such a huge dork and I enjoy every moment of it. I am finally going through and watching Secrets and Magic. I think its a good thing I waited until after I'd finished the series, otherwise I would have been so preoccupied trying to read Bradley/Colin slash and would not have ever gotten this fantastically evil story idea.

And you know what else is majorly sad about this angst-ridden chapter? Its not even the worst of the angst to come. This is just aftermath angst of the damn show. Sheesh, Merlin creators, look what you have unleashed.

Also, I hope you guys don't get mad at me for putting cliffhangers at the end of the next three parts of the story. LOL
 
 
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emmie
14 January 2010 @ 08:57 pm
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emmie
13 January 2010 @ 03:56 pm
Hey guys, I'm writing an Arthur/Merlin slash fic and I'm going to need a beta for it cos I think its gonna end up being fairly long. I will probably just send it as I finish a few chunks of it at a time, not give me the chance to keep writing and give the beta a chance to get stuff back to me when they can.

I'll need the basics--grammar, sentence structure, awkward lines, etc--looked over as well as help with making sure my plot is running along smoothly enough to keep the reader enticed, etc etc. There is going to be some sexually explicit stuff in it so if you aren't comfortable with that you can beta just the regular stuff and I can get someone else to read over the sex scene (I think there's only going to be one, but I'm not entirely certain yet) for me.

Anyhow, I would be entirely grateful to anyone who could help me out. I want this to be longer than my usual stories so I'm definitely not going to be able to catch all the mistakes when I re-read through it.
 
 
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emmie
07 January 2010 @ 11:28 pm
I'm thinking of overhauling my journal a bit. Making certain entries that are just fandom rambles public and redoing my profile page to reflect that more open ideal. I took part in a friending meme thingy not too long ago which I've never done and decided to make things less lock-downed now that I'm 23 and my parents can't scold me for using bad words on the internet. WIN!

Anyhoo, expect some changes around my neck of the woods. Going to start using my journal for what I used to use it for: FUN!

Also GoodReads should have an automatic update to Twitter, I think. Don't you? Are there any book sites that do that?

I am falling in love with Greek Mythology again, thanks to Percy Jackson. I just realised that God of War was based around mythology so guess what THIS GUY is buying at GameStop next? OH YEAH!
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emmie
29 November 2009 @ 12:52 am
I don't usually do game reviews, but I do like to talk about games that I find really fantastic and if you hadn't noticed, Assassin's Creed is one of those games.

Now I did play the first AC installment, but I didn't play it to the end. I gave up on it halfway through because of the monotony of each mission, which is where the nay-sayers really planted their feet. I cannot blame them, because it was not that well executed and that was very obvious. What was working well for the first game was the plot and the over-all game play environment they were trying to achieve. They didn't quite get there with installment number one, but they hit the mark with installment two.

Read more... )

All in all, the game was a tenfold improvement on the first game, but they do still have some things to work on. I would like to see a bit more freedom in the game allowing us to make our own decisions and reap our own consequences. Possibly allow for the thin line between what a good assassin and a bad assassin are and allow us to cross it on our own discretion. More use of environment changes according to things we do in the game, such as turning a place that was once filled with guards into the new thieves guild headquarters, and stuff like we saw used in the Villa, except implemented everywhere in the game. Maybe allow us to spend our money to improve any city in the game or let us rob food from the rich and give to the poor or steal from the poor and kill the rich and steal from them too. Let us choose how the civilians around us will treat us; this sort of environment in a game is what makes people play it through more than once. People will be more inclined to have different saved games as 'good assassins' and 'bad assassins' and enjoy seeing the differences between the two possibilities.

Yes, that may be asking a lot, but seeing how Ubisoft ran through scores of improvements on the first game, I believe they have the ability to improve things even further. I have faith in them and I can't wait to see how things go for the next game.
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emmie
26 November 2008 @ 07:07 pm
Dear FLIST,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but you're a leprechaun. I think I realized it when I saw the purple monkey in your closet and I saw you sit on my corned beef hash. I'm sure you're open enough to understand that there is no solution to you being a dumb kid. I'm returning your nose hair clippers to you, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when I think of your feet and I'm scratching my ass as you read this.

Best of luck on the sex change,
Sarah



??? )
 
 
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emmie
Tom Felton plz to be marrying me now?

I saw Ten Inch Hero finally. It was definitely not my favorite Jensen (which by the way, will never be topped by Alec, no matter how funny Dean is), but it was the most... er, expansive Jensen, maybe? I don't think that made any sense, but whatever I tried. Obviously this is the reason I missed my daily post. Oh well that, and this:



Dude, that guy is SO HOT. Not quite as hot as Tom Felton in this icon, but close. Besides that, Bill Bailey = Funniest man evah.

And why is it that Kristen Stewart looks so much livelier in Adventureland than Twilight? She even looks like a better actress. I hope she didn't do her learning on Twilight, cos I am kind of hoping it might be good. :/ I've never said it before, but Robert Pattinson really creeps me out. He looks like a serious child molester. I'm so serious. He's creepy. I think it's his hair, though, when its all curly. I have to say that Hayley Williams and Robert's interview with each other was the most interesting one I've watched on Myspace so far. Yeah so I admit, I've watched a few of the artist on artist. So sue me.

I really need to go to bed.
 
 
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emmie
20 November 2008 @ 09:43 pm
I slept on my arm wrong or something. My shoulder and my whole right side hurt so bad. I've been sore since I woke up and have had to throw my arm around because it hurt so bad to move it. I hope its better tomorrow or work isn't going to be very good.

I definitely do not envy the people in retail come black Friday; I should know too cos I am one. Every person in the store will be working. Nuts? Yep. Luckily I'm schedule in the middle of the day so I won't be there until all the doorbuster freaks and so forth are gone, so that will be nice. I won't be getting up at 5am like the rest of them! Haha.

I just watched Wall-E. It was so adorable and wonderful, just like I thought it would be. As for Twilight, I will probably be going on Monday, which means everyone better put their spoilers behind cuts because I don't want it ruined for me. Not that I am expecting anything amazing.

I am getting back into Eragon again. I should hurry up and finish it so I can get to the stuff I haven't seen in the movie.

Hehe. I named my fishes in my gaia aquarium Alphonse, Alfred and Archie. :D

If you're using gmail, check out the new themes. They are awesome! I am using Tea House on one and Bus Stop on the other. Some of them (like these two) change depending on the time of day where you live. Super neat.

Ok I'm outta here. Gonna chill out and read. Good night folks.
 
 
emmie
19 November 2008 @ 10:01 pm
So I don't have work tomorrow and this is truly a lovely thing. I actually get to sleep in! Does this mean I'm any less busy? No of course not. I have a meeting, an interview for the school television program, lunch plans and class. :sigh: When did I get a life like this? I never was busy before and it was so nice.

Oh well, it gets closer to Christmas the faster the days go! Again not much to say, but I hope to have time to sit down and write a real entry soon. Until then, I hope to be seeing Twilight SOMETIME, but so far my schedule won't allow me to go. At least not with my Mom. :/ I don't want to go by myself so I'll probably wait to go see it. It probably won't be until Monday, though.

Man my feet hurt.
 
 
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emmie
18 November 2008 @ 10:19 pm
I can't believe I didn't post yesterday. But then again I can. It's been so busy. I got home from school and watched a couple of recorded shows and then was in bed, ready to get up at seven the next morning for work today. And I get to get up and do it all again tomorrow. I hate working 8-5, but I love it too. The day goes faster in the morning, but I still think I'd rather sleep in than get up early. I dunno.

I'm still angry I didn't even think to make a post about how I had nothing to post about it. I think after nablopomo I won't be writing for weeks at a time because I won't HAVE to. lol

I'm trying to find that stupid SNL skit that Justin did. I don't know why I can't find it on SNL's website. Everyone posted it from YouTube and of course its been deleted. Why don't they just use the ones from SNL's site? If they had it up there. wtf.

By the way, it's almost Thanksgiving and almost CHRISTMAS!!
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emmie
16 November 2008 @ 09:01 pm
I haven't been reading, which I should probably remedy. So I'm gonna go read instead of playing on the computer doing absolutely nothing.

Make sure you watch the new Half-Blood Prince trailers. They are awesome!

+ http://wbads-18.vo.llnwd.net/e1/wbmovies/halfbloodprince/trailer/Champion_D_Lg.mov
+ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zf9IW-R5eI

I believe the first is the American trailer and the second is the UK trailer. Either way, YAY! They look really good. I"m excited. Also I am excited to see Twilight this Saturday.

Sorry I haven't made any good posts lately. I'll try to fix that soon, but there is just too much going on.
 
 
emmie
15 November 2008 @ 10:38 pm
I am getting accustomed to Macbook life quite well. Eventually I'll have all my files copied from my PC, but until then I guess we'll go with the flow.

Our fundraiser today went well. Even though we only made $50, I think we made a good impression. They really are amazing and if you'd like to see a sample, check out this video. These aren't the ones that Rafael did, but regardless they are similar.



Awesome, yes? I think that they will sell better at a different event. (Oh here is one that he did.) Anyhoo, I am watching some movies so I'm gonna go. Have a good day, guys.
 
 
emmie
14 November 2008 @ 11:29 pm
OH EM GEE! My computer game early. I've named him Fred. And running Parallels is like running a Mac and a PC in one. It's the coolest thing ever! I run my Windows programs right from my Mac like they were a part of the Mac OS.

I think this is possibly the coolest computer on the planet. You are sooooo jealous.
 
 
emmie
13 November 2008 @ 11:46 pm
So even though I don't think Twilight is going to be that great, I'm still super excited for its approach. I am not quite sure what the reason is for this, but perhaps it's just to see a familiar and supernatural movie again, since Half-Blood Prince won't be out till next year.

Speaking of books, I have a mystery! My Eragon book that is pretty much always in my purse, somehow got wet in the corner though I found nothing wet inside my purse. I wonder how this happened?

Once again I've got a headache so this entry isn't going to be very enlightening. I apologize. I hope to make a better entry soon. Sorry guys.
 
 
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emmie
12 November 2008 @ 11:00 pm


Finally tonight as promised, a Special Comment on the passage, last week, of Proposition Eight in California, which rescinded the right of same-sex couples to marry, and tilted the balance on this issue, from coast to coast.

Some parameters, as preface. This isn't about yelling, and this isn't about politics, and this isn't really just about Prop-8. And I don't have a personal investment in this: I'm not gay, I had to strain to think of one member of even my very extended family who is, I have no personal stories of close friends or colleagues fighting the prejudice that still pervades their lives.

And yet to me this vote is horrible. Horrible. Because this isn't about yelling, and this isn't about politics.

This is about the... human heart, and if that sounds corny, so be it.

If you voted for this Proposition or support those who did or the sentiment they expressed, I have some questions, because, truly, I do not... understand. Why does this matter to you? What is it to you? In a time of impermanence and fly-by-night relationships, these people over here want the same chance at permanence and happiness that is your option. They don't want to deny you yours. They don't want to take anything away from you. They want what you want -- a chance to be a little less alone in the world.

Only now you are saying to them -- no. You can't have it on these terms. Maybe something similar. If they behave. If they don't cause too much trouble. You'll even give them all the same legal rights -- even as you're taking away the legal right, which they already had. A world around them, still anchored in love and marriage, and you are saying, no, you can't marry. What if somebody passed a law that said you couldn't marry?

I keep hearing this term "re-defining" marriage.

If this country hadn't re-defined marriage, black people still couldn't marry white people. Sixteen states had laws on the books which made that illegal... in 1967. 1967.

The parents of the President-Elect of the United States couldn't have married in nearly one third of the states of the country their son grew up to lead. But it's worse than that. If this country had not "re-defined" marriage, some black people still couldn't marry...black people. It is one of the most overlooked and cruelest parts of our sad story of slavery. Marriages were not legally recognized, if the people were slaves. Since slaves were property, they could not legally be husband and wife, or mother and child. Their marriage vows were different: not "Until Death, Do You Part," but "Until Death or Distance, Do You Part." Marriages among slaves were not legally recognized.

You know, just like marriages today in California are not legally recognized, if the people are... gay.

And uncountable in our history are the number of men and women, forced by society into marrying the opposite sex, in sham marriages, or marriages of convenience, or just marriages of not knowing -- centuries of men and women who have lived their lives in shame and unhappiness, and who have, through a lie to themselves or others, broken countless other lives, of spouses and children... All because we said a man couldn't marry another man, or a woman couldn't marry another woman. The sanctity of marriage. How many marriages like that have there been and how on earth do they increase the "sanctity" of marriage rather than render the term, meaningless?

What is this, to you? Nobody is asking you to embrace their expression of love. But don't you, as human beings, have to embrace... that love? The world is barren enough.

It is stacked against love, and against hope, and against those very few and precious emotions that enable us to go forward. Your marriage only stands a 50-50 chance of lasting, no matter how much you feel and how hard you work.

And here are people overjoyed at the prospect of just that chance, and that work, just for the hope of having that feeling. With so much hate in the world, with so much meaningless division, and people pitted against people for no good reason, this is what your religion tells you to do? With your experience of life and this world and all its sadnesses, this is what your conscience tells you to do?

With your knowledge that life, with endless vigor, seems to tilt the playing field on which we all live, in favor of unhappiness and hate... this is what your heart tells you to do? You want to sanctify marriage? You want to honor your God and the universal love you believe he represents? Then Spread happiness -- this tiny, symbolic, semantical grain of happiness -- share it with all those who seek it. Quote me anything from your religious leader or book of choice telling you to stand against this. And then tell me how you can believe both that statement and another statement, another one which reads only "do unto others as you would have them do unto you."

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You are asked now, by your country, and perhaps by your creator, to stand on one side or another. You are asked now to stand, not on a question of politics, not on a question of religion, not on a question of gay or straight. You are asked now to stand, on a question of...love. All you need do is stand, and let the tiny ember of love meet its own fate. You don't have to help it, you don't have it applaud it, you don't have to fight for it. Just don't put it out. Just don't extinguish it. Because while it may at first look like that love is between two people you don't know and you don't understand and maybe you don't even want to know...It is, in fact, the ember of your love, for your fellow **person...

Just because this is the only world we have. And the other guy counts, too.

This is the second time in ten days I find myself concluding by turning to, of all things, the closing plea for mercy by Clarence Darrow in a murder trial.

But what he said, fits what is really at the heart of this:

"I was reading last night of the aspiration of the old Persian poet, Omar-Khayyam," he told the judge.

"It appealed to me as the highest that I can vision. I wish it was in my heart, and I wish it was in the hearts of all:

"So I be written in the Book of Love;

"I do not care about that Book above.

"Erase my name, or write it as you will,

"So I be written in the Book of Love."

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Good night, and good luck.
 
 
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